Thank You All

I just want to say thank you to everyone for all of their support.  The phone calls, texts, facebook messages, flowers and meals were so so sweet.

This is such an odd thing to grieve.  It's a bizarre situation to be in.  All I can do is liken it to a miscarriage.  I've never had one, but it seems like it is similar.  Samuel was our child, but we hadn't met him yet.  We were certain that he would be coming home to us soon, but we had never held him in our arms.  We had prepared for him and purchased things for him.  We had dreamed about watching him grow up healthier and stronger.  But now those things won't be used by him and we won't get to hold him or watch him grow.  It leaves a strange hole.  We loved him, but we don't have any memories with him.

The couple that originally told us about Samuel is leaving for Liberia tomorrow.  They knew Samuel, had met him and were so excited for him to have found a family.  I can't imagine how devastated they must feel to know they won't be able to see the sweet little guy.

So for now we are going to just sit in our odd situation of grief and praise God for all of our wonderful friends and family.  Thanks for taking this little journey with us.